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Task Avoidance

I have only one critical task to complete today - submitting a not yet finished proposal for school - and I find myself doing dozens of unrelated tasks instead. I'm usually a Do It Early sort of person, so this foot-dragging is out of character as well as being an annoying interference.

That's why I've taken yet another few minutes from the day to post about it here. Just like standing up at an AA meeting (I've never been to an AA meeting, and I don't drink alcohol so I probably never will), I'm hoping that the act of acknowledging inappropriate behavior will lead to its end.

I suspect my true dis-motivation is that I'm proposing something that will commit me to a whole lot of interactions that I'm not very courageous about, so any barriers are welcome. Still, it's got to get done, and it's got to be done before the day is over. So back I go to it.

Edit to add: turned it in in time, I'm pretty pleased with it, and thank you for the helpful advice both here and through email!

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alicebentley
Jan. 12th, 2010 10:19 pm (UTC)
I've seen those before too!

In this particular case, it was less a matter of understanding the surface reasons I wasn't getting it done, and facing the fact that I was nervous about committing to the actions this proposal will require.

I'm still going to do it of course, but it was news to me that I was nervous about it.
tlunquist
Jan. 13th, 2010 02:36 am (UTC)
It's always enlightening to discover why you're not doing something you know needs to get done. Particularly when you have a fairly clearly defined task, a clear deadline, and a desire, at least on the surface, to do it.

I find for myself that those interesting underlying weirdnesses tend to emerge when I'm doing that second step - the reminding myself of the benefits of success and the consequences of failure. Most of the time, once I can get clear on why it's important to do it, I can push myself past the fear/reluctance/dread/ whatever else is in my way.

But I completely sympathize with the stuckness that comes with dreading not just the task at hand, but the implications of completing it when the "reward" for getting it done is just a bunch more unappealing work! "Yes, let me hurry up and get the laundry done so I can start the ironing! Wheeee!"

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